midnight

last night when we talked, thats the moments i missed the most. when we were together, the midnight talk its like a tradition. we always have things to talk and discuss. last night was almost perfect. like i really want to be yours again but i cant. i know its hard to happen and u might think about it 100 times. i know. but i just want to try to make u happy again. make ur life unmiserable. the least i can do is just occupy ur time. but its all seem so impossible. i have to let u go, like it or not, i have to. but deep inside i still want to keep u. so, im just seeking a chance for me to be with u and love u again. if u are reading this, please bare in mind that i always be there for u no matter what ever u do to me because i cant find any excuse to hate u even if i want to. if only things worked out the way it suppose to be, we might be in our 11th month together now. yes, its impossible.

Top 10 NOT FOR ME Guys

Top 10 Not For Me Guys

1.too needy
2.too horny
3.player
4.flirty with everyone
5.dont get along well with me
6.heartless
7.gives no attention
8.a big jerk
9.no discipline and self-respect
10.immature

haha i dont think anyone ever cared!
;p im just bored.

Kami

People oftens come and go in our life. Ive been wondering and asking myself why all this should happen. Why do people have to change even in a very short period. They come and be nice to us when they needed us. They go after they got what they want. Sometimes it does feel like a trash. But as a human, i have no rights to question God what he has written for me. I just have to accept everything that is happening.Lately, ive been thinking alot about where will i be in a 10 years time. There's so many questions in my head that i might not get the answers straight away. I do realise that. Will i be success in 10 years time? Will i ever get a job or will i do good with the job i got? Will i still be the same? Will i ever found love? Love. What can i say?

The other day, he wrote on his personal msg that he wants love. So i asked him, why do u have to find love when love is all around u? And uve once has someone who loves u so much before, why did u let her go? And he replied "i dont know". I wish he has a better answer to explain everything clearly to me. Its taking a lot of my time to get over him while he got over me so easily. How do i know that? He looks for love, he likes another girl now. I guess im not good enough for him.I am very in an emo mood ;p I realise that.. Im a No-No for guys like him. People mite think he's a jerk or whatever. Bur for me, i see no bad things on him. True what people said. Love is blind.

Tomorrow's my last paper for trials. I am very very relieved! Hopefully tmrw will be a better day.. :)

Guess? Saturday!

A brand new watch i got today. Its Guess? Haha. Well, I wasnt really excited abt it because it doesnt really satisfy me. Deep down i really want the ODM watch. U might now understand what im saying ;p
Well its an early birthday present since i wont be able to celebrate my birthday this year because of SPM. Its a nice watch. Im starting to like it. I actually cant wait for today because dad promised to brings us out to OU. It has been a while i didnt go to OU. Was kinda exciting. But i did now buy anything because i didnt found any nice outfit.
Today also is a tiring day for mum, dad and aunty since we're going to melaka,aunty's hometown to break fast over there. Its going to be fun. Hopefully. Dad's not really in a good mood lately. We are not sure why. Hmm, i hope he'll be ok when we get to Melaka. Tata! =D

tomorrow!

Nooooo!!! Tomorrow is physics paper. I have no idea why im so scared of physics paper. I never do good. Since last year. I have so little faith that ill have good results for my trials. But its important.
I should study more from now on. Oh! Tmrw is the first day of fasting. Cant wait to fast and go bazaar with friends and family. Its sure gonna be fun! Ive to run! Its almost 1 am now. So, Tata!

Ps: here's my baby brother's picture. Luqman Arif. I love him loads! He cheers me up whenever i see him =D

Emo-ish Boring Day

Mood swings. Thats what im having for these past few weeks. I have no idea whats wrong with me. I wish i knew why im like this. I know if i continue to be like this, ill lose my friends. I need HELP! Maybe its because it is exam week or maybe i havent go out with my friends. I dont know. Its really freaking me out. People do have their ups and downs times but mine lasted for almost 1 week! Grr! I hate this feeling. Im lazy and pissed!
I wish exam is over by now. Im so lazy to go to school. But i know one day i will miss school. Thats for sure.
I guess i just want to be a grown up so fast ;p

I miss my old days with him. I guess i just miss him. Last night i dreamt about him. Maybe its because we talked before i went to bed. I was too high to remember the conversation but i know its a good one and i really dont want to ruin the conversation.Its weird that its almost 5 months and i havent got over him yet. I wish i could.
Now that he's looking for love and im not doing anything about my own love life. Its kinda pathetic though. But spm is the most important thing now so i dont think i would want to think or look for one now. Its like so impossible for me to look for someone new to replace him now. Talking to him now but i have no idea what to say. Maybe ill came up with sumthing.

Bic Runga - Sway

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

[CHORUS:]
Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

[CHORUS TWICE]

It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true

[CHORUS TWICE]

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

i love this song a lot. it never makes me bored. =)

Futsal Tournament

Our 3rd futsal tournament is really getting near. Hanna sponsored the t-shirts for our futsal games while Hanie and I sponsored the printing. We wanted to make our team looked great like the othe teams since its our 3rd tournament and also want other people to know us ;p. Well, mama,baba and aunty has been really supporting me and thats what i need the most. i thought they'll never let me play but they approved. Its a good thing eh? We've been practicing and playing for 3 days straight. Woah, u would never imagine how tired we were. Our legs and body is ACHE-ing! But we never give up. I woke very early in the morning, and it has been my job to wake other team mates. The most hardest person to wake up is Hanie. She's really one of a thing. The first day of training, i called her 9 times and she never wakes up. I had to leave her since she has tuition at 10. We had fun.

So the tournament day arrived! We were excited and tired at the same time. Well, I have to be honest that I have a feeling where we wont be able to win. We stressed quit a lot this time. The last 2 tournaments, we played for fun. i guess its because of the investments that we made for this tournament makes us hopes a lot. Well, yeah the games were very intense. Many good teams were in. We didnt play with fun and maybe thats why we lost at the semi. Well, its a good thing. We didnt go back with emo faces but with a smile on our face. To me, the tournament is a good thing to bring people together, be close to each other because we are from different cliques and also one of my team mates are from different school. The futsal tournament is a happy happy thing. Well, Im are looking forward for the next tournament which i dont know when.= D